Threshold Thursday: If Not Healing, Then What?

Most people meet energy the way they meet hospitals - they only go in when something is clearly wrong.

Think about the last time you really turned energy on, when you genuinely reached for it, asked for an attunement, sat down to channel. Probably something hurt. A trigger hit. Your body went haywire. Someone's energy felt like it was crawling under your skin and you needed it off. Reiki for pain. Attunements for blocks. Sessions for trauma. Energy shows up when there's a problem to solve, and it leaves when the problem quiets down.

Works often enough that nobody questions it. Symptoms lighten, emotions move, the body settles. The pattern reinforces itself - problem appears, energy comes in, relief follows. Makes sense.

Except it starts to twist after a while.

When energy only arrives in response to pain, your system starts associating connection with crisis. To feel justified reaching for energy - from a practitioner, from your guides, from yourself - you need a reason. A wound. A story. Something that says "see, I'm not quite ok, so this is allowed." Over time that shapes how you see yourself. It happens quietly, without the theatrical drama of declaring yourself broken. Just enough dysfunction stays alive to keep you entitled to support. Just enough relationship chaos. Just enough body tension. Just enough unresolved something so you still qualify for the work.

Healing becomes a membership you maintain by staying slightly unwell.

Practitioners get stuck here too. A lot of us came to this through our own wounds. We learned to feel most alive in crisis - the late night calls, the big releases, the heavy sessions. Someone shows up mostly fine but curious? Mostly stable but wanting something more? It can feel weirdly flat. Where's the breakthrough? Where's the voltage? There's an actual addiction to the drama of repair. The visible before-and-after. The feeling that you did something big enough to matter.

BUT you can turn energy on WHEN NOTHING IS WRONG.

I'm writing this from inside the discovery itself. The tension in recent days grew so big in me that I started feeling actual rage at the state of things. I catch my thoughts while I'm channeling or activating energy, and they're automatically creating "the reason I might need healing." It's absurd. I'm mid-channel and part of me is searching for what's wrong so I can justify what I'm doing. Like I need permission from some invisible authority that only grants access if I'm damaged enough.

The healing marketplace needs people to have problems - same as pharmaceutical companies need you to have ailments, sometimes discovering very common, very normal human conditions you can now treat. This makes energy work only make sense when something's wrong. For the channeler, it means this work only matters if I'm creating attunements for specific problems. My thoughts automatically direct me toward "problem → solution," as if that's the only path of creation.

But energy work can be art. It can have craftsmanship, express yourself with artistic edge. What's needed for that, primarily, as a creator, is to not be afraid of yourself - because it's hard to create while fearing your own creativity, fearing judgment.

What Lives Beyond the Fix

Maybe the question isn't whether healing has value - of course it does. When something genuinely hurts, when trauma locks in the body, when patterns loop so tight you can't breathe, energy work that addresses that matters. But treating healing as the default mode, the only legitimate entry point, the entire purpose - that's where it gets constrictive.

What if energy work was primarily about expansion rather than repair? About opening to what wants to emerge rather than fixing what appears broken? The shift feels subtle but changes everything. Repair contracts around the wound. Expansion uses energy to explore territory you've never touched.

When I channel with that orientation, something different moves through. Less targeted. More wild. There's no "this attunement is for releasing attachment trauma." Instead there's "this frequency wants to show you how your consciousness can stretch in directions you didn't know existed." No problem required. No before-and-after testimonial. Just curiosity meeting energy meeting the unknown.

The economic model falls apart immediately, and I feel it. How do you market "I have no idea what this will do, but it feels important"? The whole structure of spiritual services is built on problem-solving. Even the language - "what are you working ON?" "What do you need support with?" The assumption that you come to energy work because something needs work.

But what if you came to it the way you come to music? Or travel? Or sex? Not because something's wrong, but because something in you wants to feel more, reach further, touch what you haven't touched. Energy as exploration rather than medicine. As art rather than therapy. As expansion rather than recovery.

I'm standing at the threshold looking at territory I can barely see. Part of me still reaches for the safety of healing language - "this helps with..." "use this when..." - because that's the map I know. That's what makes sense to the marketplace, to clients, to the part of me that learned to measure worth by visible impact.

But another part knows I'll suffocate if I stay there. The work that wants to come through isn't interested in your wounds. It wants to meet you in your aliveness, your appetite for more, your willingness to not know what happens next. That requires a different kind of practitioner - one who isn't addicted to being needed, who can hold space for energy that doesn't perform, doesn't fix, doesn't prove itself by eliminating pain.

Can you sit with someone who isn't broken and still feel like the work matters? Can you create something that doesn't solve a problem and trust it has value anyway?

The question itself feels like the real threshold. Not "how do I heal better" but "what if healing isn't the point?" What if healing just prepares the ground for something else - something wilder, something that doesn't justify itself through usefulness, something that emerges because it wants to, not because it fixes what's broken?

I don't know what replaces healing as the primary orientation. But I know with absolute certainty there's MORE.